Baby Carson

Carson will be four weeks old tomorrow, I can't believe it!!! It seems like he has been part of our family forever. I don't have any exciting stories to tell you, because he just sits there, my favorite part of the day is when he has a gas bubble and smiles and when he falls asleep on me. Here are some new pictures of my baby.
in his Christmas outfit

our little family

sweet little boy

we are just a little tired!

if those aren't chicken legs I don't know what is!!

a little gas smile

Holding his hands, it took him a minute to figure out how to get them apart

Am I CRAZY???????

Many of you probably know this, but I am a big time sleep talker. I am the child that never grew out of the night terror thing. I guess my dreams are really realistic to me or soething. My whole life I have drove my parents, brothers, Matt, and roomates CRAZY!! I have been woken up standing on the bed screaming that my clothes were attcking me, gone into my brothers room crying because my feet fell off and I couldn't find them, and fighting Matt in bed because I was dreaming I was being buried alive, and he was trying to get me lay back down, and I was trying to fight off my mystery attacker from being buried alive. My parents even video taped me once when I was little because I didn't believe them. (I haven't decided if that was just plain mean of them to tape me, and be laughing while I'm scared to death in my sleep) My point to this blog is ever since I had Carson I have these crazy dreams about him. One night I had a dream that Matt stuck him behind the bed because he wouldn't stop crying, or that I fell asleep holding him and he was wrapped in the down comforter and couldn't breath, and I couldn't find him anywhere. I also once a night have one that we have just lost him somewhere. It's the worst feeling ever! I'm used to waking up scared from my night terrors but this brings it to a whole new level. I have had them every night atleast once a night, and Matt is getting soooo annoyed with me. So does anyone else get these kind of dreams or am I just crazy??? By the way does anyone else wish they had spell check on there blog?? I know I do, I'm not a great speller anyways, and when I get going I miss a ton, so I apoligize for all the mistakes!

Bringing Home The Baby

Sorry I've been really bad about posting. We finally got to bring Carson home on Friday afternoon!!!! It's been a exhausting and awsome all in one! I have to say I wouldn't mind having those night nurses back to take care of him, but it was getting so exhausting spending all my time at the hospital and having to drive back and forth. I love just being able to hold my baby all day without a million nurses and doctors hanging around, and to hold him without all his cords coming out of his body. He's such a good boy and he is sleeping pretty good. We feel a little out of our league, but we are getting the hang of it. Here are some new pic.
Just sleeping

Saying his prayers

Bringing Home The Baby

Grandpa and his little man

Matt and his two babies-Carson and Stella

Ten days old and going on his fist car ride


Leaving the hospital

Our first family picture

New pictures

These are pictures from Friday, Saturday, and Today

Update

It's Sunday so that means it's the end of the longest week EVER!!! We are so exhasted, emotionally and physically. Our lives pretty much relove around our trips to the hospital, and pumping every 3 hours to take the milk to the hospital. Well alot has changed since I last posted. Last night when we got to the hospital Carson had been moved to the level 2 nursery, which is wonderful. We walked into the NICU and my baby was gone. It gave me quite the scare!! Then the nurses kindly took me to the level 2 nursey across the hall. He is still sun bathing under the juandis lights. On Friday his jaundis got to a level 16 which is really high, and dangerous but now it's gone down to a level 11, hopefully when we go tonight it will be lower.
They took him completly off his oxygen as we were leaving this afternoon, hopefully he does good without it!! He started eating yesterday (through a tube)he's having a hard time dygesting it, but the doctors think he just needs time. Matt got to hold him today for the first time and they actually let us hold him for a long time. They switched him into the isolete bed (the kind that little primature babies go in) because he has figured out how to scoot around his other bed and off the juandis light so the nurses were constantly having to move him back to his spot, so in his new bed he can't go rolling everywhere and the juandis light is much bigger. So over all our little soilder has come along way and hopefully will be home very soon!!!

Baby Carson

Baby Carson finally arrives!! We got to the hospital at 7:30 Tues. morning, and after a pretty easy labor he was born at 5:13, he weighed 7lbs 3 oz, and was 18inches long. I had a placental abbrubtion and his lungs and stomach were filled with blood, so he was immediatley taken to the NICU because he couldn't breath. So for the next 15 minutes the doctor worked on me trying to get all the pieces out and all cleaned up. Matt went with the baby and he came back later and filled me in on everything. I had no clue what was going on and hadn't even really seen my baby. Like 2 hours later I finally got to go in and see him. It was so heart breaking to see him with all these tubes coming out of his body. He was making this little grunting noise trying to breath and it was just so sad. They let Matt and our Dads give him a blessing and even let me and our moms in (there can only be two people allowed at a time in there usually) We went to bed after that and the nurse came to wake me up at like 4:30 to say that he was doing alot better, he had stopped the grunting noise, and was down from 100% oxygen to 60%. I got to hold him yesterday for a minute, and I could have just held him all day long, he's such a sweet little boy and hopefully in the next couple days I can hold him again, and Matt can for the first time. His levels were better today and we are just waiting to hear from the doctor hopefully they will take him off the ventilator soon. Today he is just chillin under the jaundis lights today, so he is getting better they are just worried that he is going to get pnemonia so they are keeping a close eye on him. It was so hard to leave the hospital today with out my baby, it's been a super emotional week and I'm not embarrased to say I have been a total mess. I have so much to be thankful for this Thanksgiving but it's a pretty hard one. I will feel so much better when I have a healthy baby boy at home with his family.